a few days back, someone asked me a question
my reply to that was a "no".
ive been living with guilt since then
what i'm going through now might be my retribution

lots of things circulating in my mind recently
jealous at some trivial matters that happened to others and not me.
self consolation might work at first but i find it pathetic in the long run

i lie to people, to my friends to avoid being embarrassed.
This is one secret of mine.
what about yours?

and let's talk about today

It was a long and somewhat tiring day
with many strangers walking past
made eye contact with a few
hoping they will look at you

Went to the atm
accidentally withdrew 200bucks
wanted to hit to machine in hopes of stopping the thing
i laughed at my stupidity as i walked off with the money

Decided to go home on my own
as I needed a breather
With my players in my ears
those childish thoughts slowly disappears

The journey back was a period of introspection
coupled with a tinch of self reflection
i had the urge to browse thru my phone
Even though im better off leaving it alone

I took off 1 side of my ear phones
to hear myself sing along with the song
Constantly looked back and forth to make sure no one is around
so i don't have to quiet down

The walk back home was fast
as the lights turned green when i go past
With my favourite tune being played
i took out my keys and opened the gate

home sweet home


good night

without music, life would be a mistake

i hope my legs and shoulders will still remain intact after this week

a total of 28km route march ...............

die die die

the only thing that i look forward to is the early book out on thursday

god bless me

3 more weeks to the end of my life as a recruit!

cant believe that we are already half way thru our BMT phase. I still remember how crazily long that first 2 weeks of confinement lasted and that everyone was so damn high and excited during the first book out. Time really flies.

Today was a great day because we had our earliest book out timing ever, which was at 12pm! Reason being we visited the Singapore Discovery Centre and Army Museum in the morning as part of our NE Visit trip. Took a cab back home with Sunny and Ben from there after the whole thing ended. 30bucks was the fare :(

Went to Lasalle with Wy in the noon for lunch at their school cafe called - 15 Minutes. I think the whole school is very attractive and im in love with the architecture. Not forgetting the "golf course", which is a damn nice place to lie down and relax. According to her, it's called the "Campus Green".

She went up to find her lecturer after lunch so i roamed around the school like a dog who has lost its way. Decided to go to the library because that's the only place that makes me look like i'm part of the campus and i managed to lie down and relax on the "golf course" the second time she went up. Feels good!

Walked to the Rochor Beancurd stall after that for some good and light meal! Took bus 518 back home after that and i pretty much spent the rest of the day playing guitar.

Went to the SAF MDC website just now to check out the details for the audition which im planning to go to next sat. Seems like the kind of thing i'm looking for. Gonna call them up tmr and enquire more. Hope everything goes well!

Gathering with my poly mates tmr to celebrate liangjun's and kelina's birthday! Looking forward to meet up with them, especially those who DIDNT turn up for my birthday celebration last month. TIME TO DIE!

Lastly, on a random note, spending the day at home is pretty fun. yes i just realised that today :( I keep telling myself to make use of every minute when we book out. I didnt know staying at home can also be productive. shit

Okay time to sleep

good night and take care everyone!

Kim™ says (11:27 PM):
oh lol practise ur live range at home tml lor
Kim™ says (11:28 PM):
hahaha
goon platoon says (11:28 PM):
at home?
HOW?
LOL
play cs ar
Kim™ says (11:29 PM):
hahaha u look through something den aim all the cars passing by
LOL so lame


LOL KC DAMN LAME! people go in army become more matured, more man but hes outcome was a disaster. LOL

The past 6 days was total hell for me.

Field camp, the most painful and heart wrenching thing ive ever been thru

I wanna thank my mum, dad and every one else at home for being my motivation because i really didnt expect myself to get thru the ordeal.

To sum it up, it was a mental, physical and emotional breakdown.

Now, i believe i have the confidence to overcome whatever adversities that's being thrown at me

yes, confidence is the key. That's my mantra

Take care everyone. Hope to meet up with my friends soon

happy national day!

whats the point of serving the army when all it takes is still 1 bullet to kill u

I'm feeling happy now!

Today was a fun day.

Managed to indulge in some yummy delights! One thing i always looked forward to when i book out. The dessert at "The Traditional Dessert" was awesome! Wy really knows how to recce. hahaha

My post-birthday celebration with my family, relatives and friends just now was a blast. My parents put in a lot of effort into organising the event and i really really appreciate it. I love every gifts i received also, especially the ones my brother gave me.
Thanks for coming down Jason, Cy, Eric, Mao, Matt and Alex. Felt damn good talking to u guys!

I really wanna do something about my corner in my room. Yes, im refering to that laptop table which has a conglomerations of everything. Theres a lot of things i wanna put up but don't have the space to do so :(

Sucks not to have a room to myself

Sucks not to have the time to spruce it up.

Army life pretty much suck and im sick of blabbering on about it

Im still feeling happy despite my rants

I will try my best to feel the same way from Monday to Saturday

Thanks Grandma, Grandpa, Mum, Dad, Brother and Sister

Love u guys always

Nights everyone and take good care!