Spent a few mins asking yourself what do you want to achieve and slowly plot out the route that will help you reach that one specific goal. Stay focus and don't get distracted by things that have great potential to bring you to a halt. You need to constantly remind yourself what is your definite purpose for doing this and it will help overcome the negative thoughts in your mind.

I'm beginning to understand how important is it to set yourself a goal whatever you do. Living without a goal is like being a transexual. You can't decide what side you want to be

seems like me dozing off while listening to some talk just now in the noon is kind of worth it.

and i need to go slp now.

GOOD NIGHT!

Find someone you love and feel that love in every pore of your body. Love that person even more tomorrow. And then the next day, love one additional person; and everyday after that, increase the number of people you love.

Because the longer the list of people you love, the happier they will feel.

Now, i feel like puking my lungs out. im feeling like shit now. LITERALLY!

Caught "Juon - black & White ghost" today at cineleisure. I don't really understand whats going on throughout the whole 2 hours but i guess the main objective of the movie was to scare the audience so the plot wasnt really an important factor. The movie is being separated into 2 parts, each lasting for an hour. The ending of the first part almost tricked us into believing that the whole movie is over because of all the usual credits scene but luckily they didnt switch on the theatre lights. If not, it's time for some REFUND

Anyway, i want to watch "DIARY OF A WIMPY KID"!
i shall and i must and i will!
but when? :(
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The troubled words of a troubled mind, i try to understand what is eating me

If people think that they couldnt live without each other, then the relationship becomes more like a prison than partnership.

OFF TO CAMP :(

my right ankle is swollen to the point that it looks like the head of a jellyfish.

might be visiting the chinese orthopedic tmr.

if so, then i think i will scream inside when he "massage" my ankle.

DIE

two people got together in a relationship
but it didnt last
the guy met another girl soon after and he is definite that they two are the perfect match
but he needs to mend the broken pieces of the life he had in the past
before he can start afresh

and that's the unintended choice

I went to play PAINtball just now and it's more or less a guarentee that they won't have me as their customer anymore because i'm not going to pay 36bucks to get bruises!

But it was quite an experience. I know some, including me initially want to try their very best not to get hit if they do play it but i realised after our first game which i managed to not get hit, most likely because i stayed behind the same one plank wall throughout the match, the main purpose is to feel how painful it can be when it really gets u. And this is definitely one of those "once bitten twice shy" kind of thing. Sad to say, i got shot twice, one on my arm and the other on my chest. That was enough to make me camp at "base" and wait for the match to be over.

Met up with a few poly mates for dinner @ marche. Fellowship was good but the food was disappointing. Yh and I went to the mall below meritius mandarin after the rest went off to see look see look. Out of all the shops there, i think i recognise only 2 to 3 of it because all if not most of them were those very classy and swanky retailers. But it's quite obvious what kind of mall it is like when it's located in a hotel. The two of us also toured the hotel lobby and it's very elegant to say the least, especially the swimming pool! Needless the say, the toilet which was the only suitable place in the whole level for us commoners is also very posh.

So after walking around for 20 mins or so, we decided to snap back to reality.

ANYWAY, whatever ive typed in this entry seems very weird to me. i'm feeling funny funny funny

let's hope i won't laugh at myself when i look back at this entry next time

GOOOOOOOOOODNIGHT!

sarcasm.

how to tell?

is preserving ur image more important

or

ignoring wat others say
as long as you yourself know your conscience is clear

this is a dilemma im facing right now

gn

light travels faster than sound
this is why some people appear bright until u hear them speak


haha nice

i like this book
go get it!

revelation

Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. Many people think that hatred is a form of attack against the person that harmed you. Do you really think it's worth it, harbouring anger and personal vendetta just because of the damage that has been inflicted on u within that one minute, or maybe since young.

Don't you feel that all this time spent being resentful blankets the felicity of growth

And do you remember all the lightness you felt before this happened. That's because anger is not something thats inherent. And in order to move on, maybe you need to understand why you felt what you did and why you no longer need to feel it

So, we all should just forgive, forgive and forgive. right?

i PASSED my driving test!!! finally, a huge load off my shoulders. I got really reluctant to continue with my lessons ever since that PDL incident last year because it's sucking my wallet dry. Hence, this week was really difficult for me because i had lessons on tuesday till friday. My instructor kept calling me over the past few months, asking if im free on this day etc etc so he can help me book my test date. But he doesnt know that deep down, i don't really want to continue anymore. Just that i don't know how to tell him that. It's pretty annoying. So everytime when he called, i'll just give him a flippant answer and hope the conversation won't last for more than 10 seconds. But uve got to understand that people do this because they need to make a living also. More lessons means more income. So we just have to succumb to it.

Anyway, i should just go ahead with the formalities and thank my instructor. His nagging has made me become a more tolerant person.

Just like any others who just got their license, my hands are itching to take over the wheel. And thankfully, i get to drive my parents to dinner just now in the evening! It was fun albeit the short distance. Time to participate in those "stand to win a CAR" lucky draws!
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Life in camp is pretty ok, couldnt complain much because i get to go home everyday. Nothing beats that. But still, it's the army. Cant escape from them yet.

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Ive finished reading "perks of being a wallflower" and im glad i did. Feel like reading it again because i love that kind of story. I find it very real, like something i can really relate to. Very nice

But before i go back to that, i shall finish my second book first. "the five people you meet in heaven". So far, it has been pretty interesting. Hopefully it is impactful.

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And i just realised it's way past my bed time now.

good night everyone and take great care!

this made me melt!

oh my goodness!

ive made an oath
to love with all my heart
to not find them repulsive
but savour the time we've got

ive made an oath
to be patient with their words
to not feel irritated
whenever we converse

It has never been easy to swallow
even for one who isnt there
that is why i made this oath
to be the joy they all can share

yes! this is what im talking about. after 8 months of dog life, from BMT till the end of our signal course.. just for this 3 chevrons.

Wednesday, Thursday and Friday was spent rehearsing for the grand parade which is on friday evening. It's definitely the toughest parade rehearsal ive ever been through! We spent literally the whole day in the parade square, from morning till night on Wednesday and Thursday and the weather was unforgiving. Almost feel like falling out due to shortness of breath. It's pretty scary because the sun in the afternoon was insane. 1 guy actually fainted, landing face first while standing still. ouch

anyway, time to upload some pics of the parade!


Right markers taking up their position


The march in


signals formation!


Bunkmates + Melvin!
Yiming, Nicholas, Ser Chong, Kuong Lim, Me, Melvin


Blsc bunkmates!
Ser Chong, Jinhao, Kuong lim and me!


Dogmates!
Me and Eric


Jinhao and me!


mates from bmt till now!
me and kuong lim


another mate from BMT till now!
me and soo kee. hes looking a little depressed. maybe cuz he kena guards. cheer up mate!


Me and Johnson! gonna miss his singing. haha


Shaznee, Ser Chong and Me! mates from BMT!


Eric, Daryl, Kuong Lim, Me and Ser Chong


Dad Me and Mum! thanks for coming down to support!

lastly, i wanna wish everyone all the best in their new unit! we've come so far together and it's time for us to part. Gonna miss all the things we do in the bunk, all the group exercises we did together and all the hardships we overcame as a team!

take care everyone and see u guys soon!

8months of trainee life just for today.

will upload pics from my graduation parade soon!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When we hit the tunnel, all the sound got scooped up into a vacuum.
It was replaced by a song on the tape player. A beautiful song called "Landslide"

We got out of the tunnel and there it was, downtown. Lights on buildings and everything that makes you wonder. She sat down and started laughing. I started laughing

And in that moment, i swear we were infinite

do u feel smothered by them?

cause sometimes, i do.

fuck

hello.

It's been awhile since i wrote something here and i better not delay any longer because there are a few memorable stuff i want to pen down and i'm afraid i might not remember them if the hiatus continues.

It's pretty sad that the 15days of Chinese new year is coming to an end. I enjoyed mine quite a lot. Although it was almost the same as every year, the atmosphere and camaraderie of it is wat makes it irreplaceable. My little cousins would rush into my room the first thing they arrived at my place and asked if they can use my computer and play "Left 4 Dead". In the past, i was quite reluctant about letting them use my computer because that's the only thing that kept me occupied. Thus, i wasnt really looking forward to their arrival. haha but it's very different now, though a remnant of aversion still lingers, i feel that it's only right to be selfless at times and help make others happy! haha

I also went over to lih long's place with the guys to play some MJ and Cards on the first night of new year. If i didnt remember wrongly, i was the overall winner that night! So it was all good.



Went to alicia's birthday dinner a few weeks back. It was a Plaza Sing's Swenson. Food was alright and the company was great. But it's no fun carrying my big and heavy black bag around. Didnt have the time to go back home after i booked out so i met them right after i came out. But denise did help me with it once in a while even though i think it's a little too heavy for her. But she insisted on carrying it even though i refused to. So we exchanged bags for awhile!


there you go. haha



And i decided to pick up a book to read recently because i figured that i will have quite a lot of free time in camp for the next few days. So might as well make the most of it doing something productive. I chose one entitled "The perks of being a wallflower" amongst the few others that my sister had because i find the cover attractive. I have this very weird taste for storybooks. It seems like the cover of the book is what attracts me the most, more than wat kind of book it actually is and the content inside. Read the synopsis and it looks like it's something i will like.

Im half way through the book and im really enjoying it. Cant wait to finish it. Found out a couple of new songs too that was being mentioned in the book.This could be an impetus to help me make reading a habit. We'll see how it goes.

Went out with the usuals today for lunch at Parkway. That place suddenly seem so unfamiliar to me because i haven been there for i think close to a year or so. But i don't really notice many changes. We dined at Ichiban mainly because of the "yu sheng" there as we wanted to carry out the Chinese new year routine. Not many places have it so we gave it a try. The food was a little too expensive in my opinion. Taste was mediocre at best.

Left for some lan shop at katong after that. Hahaha lan gaming. It's like you are craving to play it and after ure done, u find it a total waste of money. But we still managed to get a good laugh out of it. haha

Went to lih long's place at night to play some cards then cabbed home with eric. I really need to control my expenses for this month. Not good

That's about it for this post. Hopefully the next wont be long.

nights and take care everyone!

if you could live 10 years of your life in total bliss - with NO pain - but in the end, not remember any of it - would you do it?